Oh How He Loves

Have you ever stopped and thought about what life would be like if God were not who He is? What if God's love was not unconditional? What if God only loved the clever, the beautiful, the rich and the famous? What if God was completely indifferent to us and didn't care if we lived or died? What if He didn't care whether we laughed or cried? What if God loved to lie to His people and was ready to pounce on us for all of our wrongs? What if He didn't give second, third, fourth...so on chances? What if He ignored us? What if He mocked us? What if He didn't send His one and only son to this earth to die so that we might live for eternity with Him?

Think about these questions...add some if you would like. I got an e-mail from a friend who is serving in South Asia and she was telling me about how when she went to visit the temples she talked to a woman. She was telling her about how she gives the gods sweets because she wants kindness from them and she gives them money when she has financial problems. When I read that all I could think was WOW. My Jesus sure is a gracious and unconditional God. How lucky I am to serve Him and to be His daughter. I take advantage of His love everyday and every second. He welcomes me into His arms and His church without anything. All He asks is that we worship and praise Him. Love Him and honor Him. I don't have to bake Him cookies for His kindness. I can turn away and He would and will still love me. He is my savior and my Lord. He created us all different and He loves the difference in us all. I could talk on this subject for hours and days but I just wanted to leave you with this to think about. And realize how lucky we truly are to know THE God that loves His children ALWAYS and FOREVER.

Reign In Me

This past Friday I went to a service at New Spring Church that was 2 hours of just worship and reading of His word. All I have to say is that Jesus is the only one that can truly silence me. Worship to me is my life cup. The past couple of months my cup has been almost empty to about dried out. I have needed to be refreshed with His mercy and His grace. I love to worship with the people that I love and I love to watch them sing and give praises to the mighty one and it was awesome to get to experience and be next to a friend that the Lord has blessed me with. For the first time in I don't even know how long I become completely vulnerable with Him and let Him take control of my body and my soul. He blessed me while I was praising Him. I was at lost for words. The Lord knows the ways of my heart more and deeper than anyone or anything. He is my purpose and my desire. I have been desperate for His touch. I have wanted nothing more than to feel His love and glory around all of me. Jesus rocks my world. He shakes everything inside of me and He fulfills the desires and the wants and needs of my heart. Through out the time of worship there were times of reading in the word and prayer. The Lord brought me to tears and on my knees for the ones in my life that I love and the ones that I want to be next to me in Heaven. He humbled me with His grace. He poured out over me and He showed me His face. I am just in the mood to have an outburst and say that I JUST LOVE JESUS WITH ALL THAT IS IN ME!!! I want nothing but serve His heart and that salvation will flow as His people pray and sing praises to Him. He completely to hold of my whole heart and He covered it with his bandages of grace and then He sealed it back with His love and mercy. I don't even know how to explain how freaking AWESOME that is to me. He is a God who saves and He reigns now and forever. I have been battling with the Lord in ways of just wanting to be in His presence in song again. My soul cries out for and longs for His praises. I have been starving myself for true worship and He fed me. Man did He feed me. I can't even explain the feeling that I had and that I have. He gave me chills, His beauty led me to weep, His glory made me lose control of my body and I jumped for my God. He is the rhythm of my beating heart. My heart beats to the rhythm of His will. I honestly can't remember anything that was going on around me and that is the best thing because I was completely focused on Him. He had my attention. He cleansed my broken heart and He gave me clean and pure hands and washed away all my sins. He renewed my hope. He put His image in my heart. He showed me that I am beautiful because I am made in Him. The lies that I have been wrapping myself with are gone and i am set free. So many times I forget what He did for me. I complain about the problems in my life but I really? I complain when my Savior carried a cross that was so heavy and had all of its weight in our sins and He died so that i could be set free in Him. There is no greater love than in my father. He showed me that no one else has the power in this world to speak louder than Him. And I choose Him and only Him. My desire is to be in love with what He loves and become more than satisfied in Him. Because I want it to be made known right here for everyone to see and read and for anyone who doesn't know Him that He is something greater than what the mind can fathom. He is the ultimate healer and He is the only one who can bring you true loving peace. He died so that you may live. So today I am going to scream out say that that I AM MADLY AND DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH MY LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST. He showed me so much within those two hours. When it was over all I could do was sit down in my seat in silence and think its not over because worship with my God will never be over. I will be worshiping Him now and for eternity. That makes my heart jump with so much joy. I get to sing praises to my Lord for the rest of my life and for all eternity with Him.



I want to leave you today with two songs that really just...I can't even explain the greatness that they do to my heart but just remember if you love Him you should sing praises to Him because it says in His words in Zephaniah 3:17 that "He takes great delight in you and He will quiet you with His love, and He will rejoice over you with singing." so bow before His presence and sing to Him. He is high and lifted up. And let your soul sing hallelujah to the lamb of God. Worship Him and adore Him. If you truly desire to know His heart don't let any moment pass you by and just praise Him with song, praise Him with your actions, Praise Him with your words, Praise Him with your prayers, Praise Him through admiring His paintings and creations, Praise Him with your body. JUST PRAISE HIM.



Came to my Rescue: Hillsong United

Falling on my knees in worship

Giving all that I am to seek your face

Lord all I am is yours

My whole life I have placed in your hands

God of mercy humbled I bow down

In your presence at your throne

I call you answered

And you came to RESCUE and i

I want to be where you are

My whole life Ive placed in your hands

God of mercy humbled i bow down

In your presence at your throne

I call you answered

And you came to rescue and I

I want to be where you are

In my life be lifted High

In our world be lifted high

In our love be lifted high

In my life be lifted high

In our world be lifted high

IN MY LOVE BE LIFTED HIGH

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yAMbEPZfWCY



Reign in us: Starfield

You thought of us before the world began to breathe

You knew our names before we came to be

You saw the very day we fall away from you

And how desperately we need to be redeemed

Lord Jesus come lead us, we're desperate for your touch

Oh great and mighty one

With one desire we come

That you would reign, that you would reign in us

We're offering up our lives

A living sacrifice

That you would reign in us

Spirit of the living God fall fresh again

Come search our hearts and purify our lives

We need your perfect love we need your discipline

We're lost unless you guide us with your light Lord Jesus come lead us

We're desperate for your touch

Oh great and mighty one with one desire we come

That you would reign that you would reign in us

We're offering up our lives a living sacrifice

That you would reign that you would reign in us

We're offering up our lives a living sacrifice

That you would reign that you would reign in us

We cry out for your life to revive us cry out

For your love defines us

For your mercy to keep us Blameless until you return

Oh great and mighty one with one desire we come

That you would reign in us

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_dohj2QAdzs

Give It All To Him

The Lord has really been messing with me lately. I am in a weird part of my life right now and sometimes it hard to really know what the Lord wants me to do. I struggle daily with being the woman that He created me to be. I went to the Clemson vs. Carolina football game yesterday. If you know me you know that I LOVE FOOTBALL and that the Lord will bless me with a husband who loves it just as much as I do. I love the excitement and the thrill of the game and the suspense of every play once the ball it hiked. It was also cold and rainy and I have lost a good bit of my voice. Anyways after the game we were walking back to our tailgate and I just heard Clemson fans screaming in unison the classic cheer of "C-L-E-M-S-O-N T-I-G-E-R-S FIGHT TIGERS FIGHT TIGERS FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT" They were all coming together to celebrate a victory over their biggest rival. Now here is where the weird part of me kicks in. As I listened I started to think about how excited these people including me were excited to watch the team they cheer for a dedicate a lot of their time to have a great win. Then I started to think about christians and the Victory that Christ will always have over Satan. I then started to realize how much we have lost excitement for the strength and the power of the God that we serve. I just started really pondering how we scream and yell out our lungs for the team but how we don't do it for Him. Why is this? It's screwed up if you ask me. He deserves the best and ultimate praise from His people. I have more thoughts on this subject but I am going to leave you with this to think about. what are you giving your true worship and praide to instead of to the God you claim to Love and serve. And I am not saying that you should not go to these games and enjoy yourself but just don't praise them more than you praise Him.

I mean our God is Victorious and there will NEVER be a battle or a game that He cannot conquer. He is most high and He the blessed Savior. I also really just love time with football because people are just so friendly with one another. You know to an extent there are times of fighting and anger but really when your team scores a touch down and have excitement even if you don't know the person beside you, you still turn to them and smile and highfive and sometime hug. Just think how awesome it would be if His people would come together and just love every person that they saw and just together as one body of believers and worshiped Him and praised Him with all that they have. So that they will lose their voices in the presence of their Lord. I just love the picture above because it shows unity and it is what I pray that the church and the body of believers one day might have.

(this blog is a little confusing I am sorry)

Draw Me Closer

These words were given to me and I heard them today...

For your nearness Lord I hunger
For your nearness Lord I will
hold me ever closer father
Such a love I cant escape
For your nearness I am hoping
For your nearness lord I long
I have no need of any other
I have found where i belong
Draw me nearer Lord
Never let me go
Closer to your heart
Draw me nearer Lord
In your nearness there is healing
What was broken now Whole
Restoration in its fullness
Lasting hope to all who come
In your nearness I take shelter
Where you are is where I am home
I have need of only one thing
To be here before your throne
Draw me nearer
Never let go
Closer to your heart
Draw me nearer Lord
And keep me here
Keep me here
There is no where else I would rather be
So keep me here
There is no where else i would rather be
So draw me nearer Lord
Never let me go
Closer to your heart
Draw me nearer Lord
Draw me nearer Lord

I Will Worship

I will worship the one who threw to stars to the night and i will worship the one that tells the sun to shine and I will worship you Lord. My hands I lift you, My voice I lift to you, my heart I lift to you hallelujah. I will worship the one who calmed the raging sea and I will worship the one who hushed the rage in me and i will worship you lord. My hands my I lift to you, my voice I lift to you, my heart I lift to you hallelujah. Prince of Peace ,Almighty God, Counselor, Holy One, Son of Man Resurrection and the Life, king of kinds Jesus Christ. You are faithful, I will praise you all my days. For your glory I offer you every that I am and have. I will follow you all the way. God of all creation you are awesome and you are magnificent. I will rejoice in your name oh Lord. When I see the morning rise over the mountains I see your mercy and your mighty hand. Only you can satisfy me and turn my sorrow to the sea. I was made to worship you!!! He have filled my heart with wonder and you bring to know i am forgiven and free and I will worship all of my days.

So that we will arise and worship

My only words for you today is what is said in this song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0qfLsi8qWK4

You Alone I Live For

"When everything feels like it could be falling apart and it's all you can do to fight tears, Worship Him. When things are great, worship. When you just feel stuck, worship Him." -AR-

Today I want to encourage you to sit and stop and worship Him. Everyone has their own form of worship. Some would say just getting lost in His word or just looking out on His creations. Some would even say it was to sit with others and give words of encouragement. If you feel lead to worship Him through prayer then pray. I want to leave you with a song that is the worship of my heart. (of course it is a song) If you decide to listen to it today I just want to ask one thing of you. Stop what you are doing and put all the work in your hands down, set aside the thoughts in your head for the 5 minutes and really experience the Lord. Let Him talk to you and let Him tell you the ways of His heart and let Him be your fulfillment. This world and today's people have truly lost what it means to "be still" we live these lives that are so busy and are so full of sin and finding joy material enjoyments that we feel the inconvenience sometimes of God. HE SHOULD NEVER BE AN INCONVENIENCE OR A SECOND THOUGHT! He should be your first and only thought. I struggle with this everyday and I am not going to sit here and tell you to do something that I am not trying myself. Everyday I struggle with striving to live a life glorifying to Him. I am in love with my Savior but I still have times where I have doubt, where I have so many questions, I have feelings brokenness, hate, healing, hurt, hunger, confusion, chaos, pain, loveless, emptiness. Today I just sat and just responded to Him today. I tried to write down everything that came to my mind when I was listening to this song. I am so grateful to serve such a forgiving and gracious God.

I put my i-tunes of shuffle this morning and this was the first song and is the song I am going to share. I know most people who read my blog that I know of, know this song verily well. But really just listen to not just the words but what the Lord is saying with the music and what is being said between the lines. I am going to post two songs today. I encourage you to listen to listen to them both. If you have not checked out or have listened to Chris Tomlin's new CD "Hello Love" I HIGHLY recommend and it and I guarantee it will change your life. It is absolutely amazing and is so powerful. It is praise Jesus for real all the time. But the 2Nd song is a song that I have had for a while and it comes back to me at various times in my life.

The first song is God of this City...Really listen to this song and let Him speak. Shut-up for one moment and give your thoughts to Him for a change. I have had to learn to do this as well. If this doesn't speak to you then I think you need to be thinking about other things you need to get right with Him because He should always be your excitement. (even if you know these songs still just listen, this is my favorite version)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aGkEE5dwmdY

This song is just my heart and really just brings me to a new place with Him every time I listen to it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2BL29sBMyjs

To end my blog today and I am impressed if you lasted this long and read all of this. I wanted to share what came to me this morning with my time with the Lord...

My God you are my God...You give me peace in times of destruction. You the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords. Prince of Peace, Almighty God. You are mighty to save. You are the resurrection. You fill my soul and you are my soul. You're my only purpose. You are sovereign. You are loving. You are Love. You give me courage. You are my Hands and you are my one pure and holy passion. You are my desire. You are the most majestic painter. You are creative God. You are my Maker. You are my Creator. You are my counselor. You are Brilliant. You are all deserving. You are my Joy. You give me hope. You are my Melody. You are my song. you are trusting. you are my obsession. You are worthy of all things. You are pure. You are partner. You are my Father. You are my Flame. You are my blessing. You are my only meaning. You are Real. You are my virtue. You are my freedom. You are my strength. You are my encouragements. You are my heart. I am your daughter. I am made in your image. You are all honoring. You are Good. You are unfailing. You are Emmanuel. You bring light to darkness. You are my voice. You are my joy. You the whispers of my heart. You are Grace. You are my Victory and You are victorious. You are my Risen Savior. My Jesus Christ. I am your and you are mine. You know far better than I and if destruction is what I need then I will receive it Lord from thee. I need you like burning flame. You the eye the storm watching over and its the eye in the storm only wanting good for me. All my plans fail with I see your glory. Who am I to plan and decide of my desires because you alone I live for. I am a sinner found in your presence. You are exalted and your glory surrounds you. Holy Holy is you Lord God Almighty. You reign over me and over these nations. You are the center of my life. You are Holy God over us. Once died to be my Savior. I can not understand your mysteries and that brings me excitement to search more into your heart Lord. I stand in wonder of my you my Savior. You died to save and with you Jesus you filled the hole in heart with the nails of your hands. You love and you forgive. "My Savior Loves, My Savior Lives, My Savior is always there for me, My God He was My God is always gonna be." I sit here God awaiting your guidance. I'm wanting only your voice to be heard.

The Melodies That Touch The Soul

Music is a sensation; it's a form of expression. It releases stress. It is some people's way of communicating the love language of the heart. And it is form of art and it has multiple elements or rythm, melody, harmony, and my favorite color. Just hearing the sweet, pleasing, or harmonious sounds of a song can change my whole attitude. I have had a lost of stress lately with life and a dear friend who is a blessing to my soul showed me to what is now my favorite place on this campus. It is now the home to my sould and it brings me to some of my most vulnerable moments. I love to get away from people and just be with the Lord and I have been brought to a piano. It really brings me to my face with the Lord. It allows me to have wordless converations with the Lord. He can read my heart and I can play the melodies and the harmonies of my soul through hurt, sadness, anger and happiness. It is my form of expression and praise to God my father. The Lord gave me my ear for the piano and I am so greatful. I truly believe that when I sit down at the piano and just give myself unto the Lord that He brings out my songs and HE is my melody. ( i love that). Yesterday I completely lost myself in the music and just played. He gave me the sweetest melody of His heart. This place is now my getaway and it describes His love for me, and His willingness to hold my world all together. I have come to love the piano more than ever and I love just sitting there and playing with the keys and chords. I recorded a video because I can't always remember what I play and it is dark because it is late at night and it was in the chapel and I don't know how to turn the big lights on. But I hope you enjoy this and I am a little vulnerable to share becaue I normally keep this to myself even from family. But the Lord layed it on my heart this evening to share a hidden side of my heart. The only way I could take it off of my cyberlink cam is to upload it youtube.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y3oIVdXGAxE

You're Not Alone

This song just spoke to me. It is just so true for my life and for the Love that is given by Him. I don't have many words for you today. All I ask is that you will listen to this song and let the Lord do the talking.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rgz_GI7h_U8

My Prayer
Heavenly Father,
I live for the fulfillment of you my Lord Jesus Christ. I want nothing more than to please you father and complete the duties of your will for my life. I am woman who has been broken but everyday I am learning that because of my brokenness I am bringing glue into someones life. Thank you Lord for Life, Thank you Lord for the gifts of your creation. Thank you for you, thank you for right now. Thank you for this day and the opportunity to know you and serve you. Thank you for your presence always. Thank you for your unconditional love and forgiveness. Help me to open my heart and know your unconditional love and forgiveness and extend it outward and to open my eye and see your light in all who cross my path today in loving, unattached service to your will. My gracious Lord I place my future in your hands and choose to experience peace within your grace, feeling joined and connected with you who have been always and will be always, and with all those who have, who do, and who will cross my path, seeing their light, being a love finder and a love giver opening my heart to know your unconditional love and forgiveness and extending it outward. Praise the father praise the son praise the spirit three in one. Hallelujah. My hope is found in you, I hold on tightly you will never let me go. Jesus you will never fail. Mercy has found a way for me Jesus you are all WE need. What a Savior you are, you were crucified and now you are alive. Your Grace has made a way to the cross. Thank you for loving me. Amen

Your Daughter,

Amy Richardson



Today I lost a good friend of mine due to a drunk driver driving into her lane. I have experienced death in my life before and I have lost friends in the past. But what is different about this specific friend is that I did not think anything out of the ordinary in our friendship. We sat near one another in choir my freshman year in High School. Yes, she was a little different of a person but I always found her to be hilarious and she just had so much joy. We never hung out, outside of school but when we were able to talk in school I had some of the most fascinating conversations. At the end of senior year she wrote in my yearbook "Thank you for never once judging me and just loving me for who I am. You have shown me a light Amy Richardson. Thank you for never throwing your beliefs in my face but allowing me to see them just by your spirit..." I wish that I could know that she has seen the light to Jesus Christ and is now in the arms of her maker but all I can do is pray that she is.. My heart is broken for her family and my heart hurts because of a loss to a good friend. I pray that I was the light that she needed to see.

KNOWLEDGE + POWER = GODLINESS

Will you obey Him when He speaks to you? That is the question that I have been struggling with and pondering over the past couple of days. Sometimes I wonder if without even knowing it have I not opened my ears to what the Lord has called me to do and I have done my own thing without having Him be the center of my decision making. I have been given a couple of opportunities to take part in this coming summer. Last summer I got the opportunity to go on a mission trip to Calgary, Canada for 8 days last July. It it was a completely different experience because I was no longer a youth on a youth mission trip where you had the mommy's and daddy's to take care of your stuff during travel and they made sure you ate and got sleep. This trip was with 4 awesome other individuals with my church and I was responsible for myself but anyways that is beside the point. I have been on many trips across the seas and within the United States and I have always left with a heart just wanting to stay and be with them. But when I left Canada I left with a heart that was not finished. I left my heart in the country and in that city. It is the most beautiful and the most majestic place that I have been. The people there are just so full of spirit and just are extremely friendly. They live in 700,000 to 1 million dollar houses, drive nice cars, wear the lastest brand of clothing and most have both parents living in the home. The crazy thing about it, is it is such a dark place spiritually. There are 1 million people in the city of Calgary and 900,000 people do not know the Lord. It amazed me because it was not poverty that kept them from knowing the Lord. They live fine lives and some live materially better lives then I but they are just so dark. I led a soccer camp the week I was there and I became close with my 4Th and 5Th graders. Especially on little girl named Brooklyn. I pray for this little girl and her family everyday. She is an amazing little girl and has some mad skills with a soccer ball. she started out in the beginning of the week quiet but as I got to know her she would not stop talking. Brooklyn is from a Mormon family. That just broke my heart because when we would have a devotion at the end of every day's camp she would say that what "our" Bible said was different than hers and was not true. When I got back in the car to head to lunch that day I could not help myself but to cry. I specifically prayed for her all week. And on the last day she invited me to walk her home (and in Canada you don't automatically have trust you have to earn it and getting invited and welcomed into someones home is a BIG deal). I felt so honored to be able to walk her home and she invited me into her home to show me her room. I was then able to meet her mom and what her mom said to me I will never forget. She said thank you because Brooklyn came home from camp everyday talking about me and that she has seen something in me and in the other leaders she has never seen in anyone else. That blessed my heart because it showed me that I was doing what I was supposed to be doing and that is shining the light of Jesus Christ. God is so powerful and so strong and it amazes me how He shows himself. I left Canada with a feeling like I had forgotten something and when I finally returned to my home I realized that was my heart. I have fallen in love with this country and it's people. These kids left an impression on my heart that will never fade. God did not only use me to teach them something but He used them to show me how much I forget how Good He really is and His Glory is so strong. I have had spiritual highs before but they have all faded down when the returning to home but it is 5 months later and I am still excited about this ministry and of Southwinds church and I pray for the missionaries there everyday. They had there first Baptism last month and I praise God for that. But now for the meaning of this post and it is because I have been offered to spend 3 months as the summer missionary there this summer working on a youth ministry. I have been praying for a long time that the Lord would show himself in this situation and in my decision making. I also might have the opportunity to work at a summer camp. I have always wanted to work for a camp and I have heard that it is an experience of a lifetime. This morning in my quiet time with the Lord I opened my Bible to Jeremiah 6:16 and it says " This is what the Lord says: "Stand at the crossroads and look; ask for the eternal path, ask where the good way is, and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls" This verse really gave me a reassurance that if I truly trust in the Lord in the decisions that I make then they will be made in His will. I have a heart for both things that I am given a chance to be a part of but I am only worried that I drain out the voice of my God and fill my head with the voice of my own wants and desires. Maybe it is not my time to return to Canada just yet and the Lord wants me to experience a new setting and work at a summer camp which is where my heart was until I was offered the opportunity to return to Canada so soon. As I read this verse as I ponder every angle of it. "Stand at the crossroads and look. Ask for the ETERNAL path - where the good way is and you will find rest in your souls." God is showing me that when He calls me to live for Him, He will bring to places- crossroads in my life- and they may not make sense to me. They may see like a foolish choice. Yet, He wants me to look at this crossroad in terms of its ETERNAL value. Sometimes that means that He will ask me to make a decision that will not seem to be the best in regarding finances, or safety or whatever. Others may think I'm foolish to follow that path BUT when I am sure of what God is asking, we need to remember Peter in Luke 5:1-11. Jesus knows the beginning from the end. I need to trust HIM. I need to follow the path that HE is asking me to walk not the path I find more comfortable or know the best. Jeremiah ends this verse with REST with my soul. That to me is a beautiful payment. No matter what success I might have had apart from Christ, there will not be that SOUL rest. So now I wait and call on the paths of the Lord whether it is to work serving Him in Canada or work serving Him at a summer camp. If you have time today or sometime this week and if you remember please pray for His people in Canada. There are a lot of needs and I pray that Jesus will be there sunshine and they will see that they are given such blessed lives and have these talents and they will come to know there creator and the God who gave them all that they have. And also pray for SouthWinds church as it reaches out to lost people and still encourages new believers. Also pray that the Lord will keep them secure with all financial needs. Here are a few pictures that just remind me of how brilliant our Lord God is and He is good to His people even when we forsake Him. Also just pray that will seek to know His will for my life and that the decision I come to make is His choice not mine.

Wonders of the World

Yesterday, I was on my way back to school after waiting in line and voting like the true American I am but anyways I spotted the most beautiful rainbow that I have ever seen. After a few moments of looking out on the rainbow I spotted how spectacular this time of year is and how we forget how beautiful this world truly is, and how brilliant the creator is. God is most creative and has the most majestic paintings. He is the artist of all artist. His painting in the sky yesterday absolutely took my breath away. The Lord created a beautiful day yesterday you saw every inch of His beautiful wonders and that I am thankful. You know it amazes me that the sunset is never the same. You will never find the sky the exact way as the day before. It is so awesome to think that God's creativity and LOVE never runs dry. I just absolutely adore and love the colors of the leaves around my school. I love to just sit outside and do my work because the scenary is absolutely gorgeous. I just wanted to share a few pictures that truly captures the greatness of God.

I trust in the election of my Lord

I have written a post but I am still debating whether or not I am going to publish it. I am a very opinionated person, and literally everyone that I have met including family, close friends, and teachers have all told me that at least once. There is a good and bad side it. But if you know me you know that I am fascinated with and love US History and American Government. Those classes in high school I left with a warm fuzzy feeling and I was the nerd who finished US History with a 100 average. Anyways today I am going to get to vote in the presidential election. And if I decide to post my opinions (which probably wont happen) then you will know my livid and hurting feelings towards this election. But today I pray that whatever the outcome is when I wake up in the morning (which I am a nerd and I have always watched the polls) I will find comfort and peace in the Almighty God who holds this country in His hands. I am trusting in my Lord that things will be alright and that His will, will be done. America has fallen short to the Glory of God. Christians have failed at their jobs and a time of persecution will come for this country. All non-believers and believers who talk the talk but don't live the life should fear the Lord, because He WILL reign again. Todays world is so much like the Old Testament in so many ways. It is time that us, as Christians speak the truth of the Lord and stop putting daisy's in the middle of the gospel. I am going to stop myself now before I offend anyone because I seem to that a lot in this specific subject.

God please Bless America

So of course you know that I cant leave you without a song. On shuffle my ipod turned this on and let me tell you my roommate and I had a time of praising God. This song made me feel better about the day. and yes I am a huge kirk franklin

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xGGg_bfIkUU

Happy Day!

You know things in life are not always going to be laughs and giggles but the Lord intended us all to laugh and enjoy our time. Lately I have been noticing how Christians have lost their excitement for Christ. I am not saying that in a stereotypical thing that Christians are a click but from what I have observed is that during worship why do we stand still? Why do we not scream the fact that I am alive because I am alive in Christ? Personally I am more than excited to be the daughter of the King. It brings me hope to know that I have a Savior that loves me. Wow Jesus loves me Amy Richardson, man that is freaking amazing. I cant help myself wanting to scream and shout and jump and dance (yes dance) and go crazy because their is a King that holds me in His hands. I have received grace and because of that HE HAS SAVED ME. I love my Lord and I am proud to scream it from the top of my lungs and let everyone know that He is alive in me. I love the fact the Almighty King who is bigger than all the universe made me. He loves my heart, He loves me smile, He loves my passion, He loves me in my hurts, He receives praises from my voice, He loves me so much He was willing to die for me, and for that I am changed. I JUST LOVE JESUS AND I AM GOING TO CELEBRATE IT.

My Healer

If you know me at all or if you have noticed on my blog then you will know that music is a big part of my life. I cannot imagine my life without my music, now dont get me wrong I am not saying that music is all of who I am but it is a big part of my idendity and my heart. The Lord comes to everyone in more ways then any human can think of, and for example the Lord spoke to Moses through a burning bush. Everyone has a way that they feel closest to the Lord. Some would say it is when they are reading His word, or some would say that just ovbserving and just taking in His majestic and magnificient and beautiful creation is when they feel the Lord closest to them. Mine is through songs. I became a Christian through a song it was the lyrics of that song that made me realize what I was missing in my life and it led me to my Lord Jesus Christ. I am a woman who can listen to about anything and like it and I can find anything inbetween the lines of any song. The Lord speaks to me through songs a lot of the time. When I am feeling down or discouraged or happy and excited He knows what to bring me. I love nothing more than to sing praises to my Lord and when He shows up so vividly and so powerful that I feel as though I am floating and He is my base. I lose complete control of myself and let Him in and I let Him speak so clearly to me as though it was the person next to me. I serve a God that is so gracious and is the definition of love and He is caring and compassionate and all deserving. I struggle daily and I sometimes am not okay with that but I have faith. (I will share the song that spoke to me today at the end of this post.)

But also this morning in chapel the Lord answered all of my questions I had last night in my last blog. This morning the sermon was on James 1:2-4 and it says "Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have it full effect, that you may be perfect and complet, lacking in nothing." Just the verse alone speaks to me but what was said was so convicting. Steadfastness is the ability to take all thats in life and turn it and shine the spotlight towards the greatness of God. I think when James stated this he was saying when God takes something out of your life is always wants to replace it with a blessing if you allow Him too. Everyone will get a shot at suffering, it does not take a rock to realize the worst hurts are the hurts that YOU pysically feel. And some struggles given to you are to reveal the glory of God. When I heard all of this I realized that I want people to see Jesus through my pain. I want to take my brokeness and heal somone elses brokeness and allow them to see the good in what the bad has caused.

To share some of what I am struggling with right now is that my best friend left a week ago for 2 months for training. She will be leaving in January for two years to serve the lord in South Asia. I am so excited for her and I admire her obediance to the Lord. Amanda is the person that I depend on and the person that knows my insecurities and knows my heart. She is that person in my life that the Lord made that friendship. She is encouraging like no one I know and she loves me for and she accepts my weirdness. Amanda prays for me genuinlly and I find myself only wanting her presence when I am struggling or when I am laughing. She has made me see who I can be but now I am learning to see it myself. She does love me for who I am but she also loves me for who I can be, she has helped me pull out of some really hard times in my life. She has seen some of my most awkward and embarassing moments and some of my most paiful. She can sit with me and I dont even have to say anything and she gets it. She is in my mind the best description of what a true best friend looks like. She loves the Lord passionately and you can always see Jesus through her smile and her actions. She has a way with words that can make you feel so good and she is always their to lift me up. She is not afraid to tell me when I am wrong and she never once judges. With her leaving I had a hard time with it and I know she is not gone from my life because we have a friendship that the Lord inteded to last. But the reason for my saying all of this is because this morning the Lord brought to me this Why in the book of life do we expect every chapter to be good when God only promised that the last chapter would be good? Think about that. I am still struggling and still have some not so nice feelings toward the Lord sometimes and not every day is easy. But finding my hope is someting I know I can depend on in my Lord. I want to be mad for Him taking Amanda away for so long and have found brokeness in my relationship with God through it. I have forgotten to thank Him for her daily and trust that our chapter is not over. I have my days where I want to cry and I want to let everthing fall apart, but I also look foward to the day when she comes home and I get to experience it with her and hear her experiences and her trials while on the field. That excites me for her and the way the Lord is going to use her becuase she is one awesome person and every person she meets while over there will be blessed by her.
But I know the Lord is going to use me while she is away and my trials will not always be easy but I feel like I have to have space from her if I am going to be able to let the Lord rebuild my heart in Him. Allow me to not just open my heart to her but to other people in my life. Allow me to grow in my father and know that I am free and in love in the father. Because He is majestic and beautiful and gracious and merciful and He is my prince of peace Almighty God, Counselor, Holy One, Lion of Judah, Son of man, Son of God the I am, ressurection and the life, king of kings, my Jesus Christ. I am beyond greatful to serve a mighty God who saves me everyday and I am not worthy.

Here is the song that has been on my heart all day...

You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk me through fire
And you heal all my disease

I trust in you
I trust in you

I believe you're my healer
I believe you are all I need
I believe you're my portion
I believe you're more than enough for me
Jesus, you're all I need

Nothing is impossible for you
You hold my world in your hands

Jesus you're all I need.

Questions of Grace...

Why do I feel so alone when I know that my creator is right next to me?
Why is it that I had a wonderful weekend and the Lord spoke not only to middle schoolers but to me as well and right when I entered my dorm room I started to cry?
Why does it take all that is in me to turn to my Father when I am in need?
Why do I blame Him for my best friend leaving me to serve Him?
Why am I selfish about all things in my life?
Why can't I see what the Lord has made when I look in the mirror?
Why do I see the need to always be happy when infront of others?
Why do I go into a small state of depression when things in my life change?
Why cant I trust in relationships?
Why cant I love me for me?
Why do I deserve His grace?
Why do I deserve a Father who saves?
Why does He love me so much when I dont deserve His love?
Why does my heart ache?
Why cant i understand the meanings for the things in my life?
Why cant i turn away from anxiety and worry?
Why cant I give my fears completely unto the Lord?
Why do things always have to go my way, when I know they should be His?

I know these questions are different and weird but these are what I have asked myself tonight. I have realized that no one has said that life is going to be full of Daisy's and sunshiny days. I was a leader on a middle school fall retreat this past weekend and sometime through out the week I will share more about the weekend I promise, but this weekend was wonderful and God is good but what I question is why do I feel His presence inside of me but still have all of these questions? The one who is trying to steal, kill, and destroy is taking over my thoughts and before this weekend I would have blamed it all on the evil one but what I have learned is it all my fault. I am the one who decides whether or not I am going to let Satan control me. I am in the middle of some serious soul renovation. I am scared. I know the Lord is doing some serious things in my life right now and I have come to realize that me asking questions is my way towards growing deeper in my Lord God. I want to make a difference for the kingdom and the only way to do that is to listen to Him, Study Him and His word daily, grieve my pain but still trusting that the Lord is soverign and things will be okay. They may not have turned out the way you wanted but all that matter is that they turned out the way he wanted and that He shall be praised. I think everyone should write down their questions they ask God almost daily. They are not always going to be pretty and some of them can be kind of scary in fact but I think growing stronger in the Lord is not always seeing what is colorful in your life but what is grey. I want the Lord to show me who I have really been and I want to change. I want to depend myself with Him and not with others. I want to honestly know that things are going to be okay. You know I prayed the other night that the Lord would renovate my heart and show me my wrong ways and lead me to His right ways, when I was praying this I knew things were going to get ugly in my heart and my emotions and things mentally might go crazy but what I didnt know at the time was that it was my decision to allow Him to take control when times of pain and grief and sorrow or if I wanted the evil one to stop me from letting Him help me. Word of advice...if you ever decide to pray a prayer like that then you better be prepared for some crazy emotions some dark days. The Lord is mighty and I do trust that. Last night I watched the movie Prince of Egypt with some of my 6th grade girls on the retreat. First that is one of my favorite movies because Moses is my favorite story in the Old Testament, but anyways as I watched this movie for the hundrenth time I watch these girls who were in amazement of the parting of the red sea and the power of God through is people(but like I said I will post on the weekend another time) the reason I brought up this movie is because of a certain song that is sung in the end when Pharoah tells Moses that the Hebrews are free. I have always loved this song but it stook out to me last night and has been in my mind all day. have you noticed songs are the way the Lord speaks to my heart a lot of the times. I need to believe with my whole heart not just a part of it. The words in this song are so beyond powerful , God sure is good and He knows how to get into my heart. I am sorry if this blog is a little different but it is my heart and this blog is for me to express my feelings into words and if you know me at all that is a scary and exciting thing i know I am a bit random and scattered brained also this blog is about my spiritual walk with my Lord Jesus Christ.

"Many nights we pray
With no proof anyone could hear
And our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understand
Now we are not afraid
Although we know theres much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we know we could
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who know what miracle
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
And now I am standing here
My hearts so full I cant explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought Id say
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frailIts hard to kill
Who know what miracles
When you believe
Somehow you will You will when you believe
They dont always happen when you ask
And its easy to give in to your fear
when youre blinded by your pain
Cant see you way safe through the rain
Thought of a still resilient voice
Says love is very near
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who know what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe"

Not Without Love

I just love what this says and its crazy how so true it is for my life...

I tried Lord I tried Lord, Chin up, head high All zeal and no joy Thinking all my good deeds could please Jesus Boy, was I wrong Though I knew the right songs, all my cymbals and gongs played the melodies wrong And it wasn’t long ‘til I saw my disease A life spent wanting to please On hands and knees To make right, to appease God help me please This can’t be Christianity, it can’t be The whole thing’s like insanity Where’s the rest of eternal security? Where’s the hope of a God big enough to cope with all my hang-ups and insecurities? Certainly this isn’t breathing My chest burning and heavingI t’s like my pulse is ceasing Like my heart quits beating Yet this I recall to mind and therefore I have hope:You died, Lord You died, LordAssuredly, like the coming of the dawn, the Father’s love song goes on Drowning out my bitter songs And breaking through walls and barriers Christ swoops in, removes sin, picks up His bride and carries her So I can sing in agreement with the King this thing:There’s only one thing that pleases the Father The God-man on the tree in the midst of the scoffers Now I finally see that Christ is what Christ offers And I’m finally free in the love of the Father.

-Jimmy Needham-

"Loving God With Your Mind"

Philippians 4:8 says "Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything is worthy of praise, dwell on these things." Paul was very clear about what we need to think about. He calls us to think on what is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, and admirable. The problem that we so often have in thinking about what is true is that we devote a lot of thoughts to the past and try to imagine, "If only..." Or we can live paralyzed with fear, imagining "What if..." We also waste time dwelling on the present when out thought are consumed with "life should not look this way. It was not supposed to turn out this way." All of those thought patterns are based on thoughts that are not True. We accomplish nothing with that line of thinking except regret, fear, and resentment. And there is your formula for some very depressed thinking. We must learn to turn that around and acknowledge life as it is. We must deal with the hear and now. We must learn to relinquish the regret, the fear, and resentment and ask the Lord to take everything- all of the circumstances-and use them for His Glory. He can do it, you know. I cannot explain how he manages to take some of our grand messes and rework them so that He is able to gain glory for Himself, yet I have seen Him do this over and over in my life. Ask the Lord to receive all of you- the good, the bad, and the ugly, and to take those negative things, pass them through the fire, and allow them to be used for His Glory. The amazing thing is that when that process has taken place, God can use those very things to minister to others who are hurting.

""if you let the Lord set your life on fire...people WILL watch it burn!"

A really awesome person shared this with me today, and it has really had me thinking all evening. All I ask is that you take time and think about what it is saying to your heart, because it has sure got me thinking. Thank you Britinie for sharing this with me. God sure does know how to speak to us in amazing and mysterious ways doesnt HE? We serve such a great God. My blog is all about the Lords light and his fire and how my life has changed since I lighted my candle to salvation. It is true if you truly are with Christ then He will shine through you EVER.

A Child Of God

With every breath with every salt
From what is seem to the deepest part
I offer all that i've come to be
To know your love fathering me
Father you're all I need
My souls sufficiency
My strength when I am weak
The love that carries me
Your arms enfold me
Till I am only
A child of God
With Every step on this journey's walk
And wisdom songs
But the soul is saught
I give my self unreservedly
Your arms enfold me till I am only
A child of God

Not to be anxious...

Today I have struggled with many deep emotions and have found myself stopping on my way to class to cry. I will explain more in a different post but what I wanted to share today was that God sure knows how to calm you. Anxiety has been taking over my life lately more than it ever has before. I have been worrying so much about so many things that I forgotten to take care of myself physically and spiritually. Today I started a bible study with some girls on campus and we meet ever Monday. Ruth McWhite a woman dear to my heart wrote this herself and is leading it. It is called Pathfinders. It is all about finding yourself in Christ. When I am finished with this 28 day bible study I hope to have found security in the arms of my maker and what it says in Philippians 4: 4-7 "Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again; rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will guard your hears and MINDS in Jesus Christ." will be true to my life. I all caps Mind in the passage because I have a problem with letting my mind take over who I am. And with my struggles now I will not let my mind defeat me with thoughts only of what is wrong but for what is right with my Lord. I am not always happy with the Lord. I have been through so much in my lifetime so farr and I know these things that are broken in my life will allow me to further Gods Kingdom and be the woman He wants of me. But at this moment I am struggling understanding His will for my life. I am now stiving to walk the path of Christ and know it so well that when the lights go out I will be walking so close to the Lord and I will trust completely so that things are going to be okay and I will have a calmness in Him and not in others, and because of this I know this Bible Study will be that for me.


On a different note I also have something else that I am learning to deal...

A is a very special person in my life shared something with me and she said in these words "getting close to people always involves risk. Never let the fear and risk overcome the potential blessing it could be to really let someone know you." I have the tendency to not open up fully to people because of my fear in getting hurt because I have been deeply scared in my past and still today struggling with the baggage. I now am learning to be more willing open to people in my life who truly want to know about me and want to be there for me.

L-O-V-E

I warned you that my blog was going to be scattered and random, I am just taking my thoughts and putting them into words and my brain is a bag of weird, I am just warning you that sometimes you probably wont understand me but its okay because the Lord knows all of my words and meaning and He gets me like no other, and that is the purpose for my blog is to grow stronger with the Lord and dig deeper in my relationship.


He has covered me with His grace, can i recognize my Lord when things aren't the way I have planned? Why is it that in this world we use the word LOVE so abusively? We say that we love everything that is attractive to the eye but do we know that there is a God out there greater that TRULY LOVES us UNCONDITIONALLY. I lead a 6Th grade small group on Wednesday nights and last night Chris spoke on Zephaniah 3:17; "The Lord your God is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing." I mean think about that verse for a moment. Read it piece by piece, Chris did a wonderful job elaborating on this verse. "The Lord your God is with you" I stinking awesome is that. We put ourselves in secluded areas at times in our lives to get away from struggles and fears and disappointment but think how often we forget that the creator of the universe is right beside us and all around us all the time. So often we forget that when we are lonely and are struggling that there is a God that loves us and is with us every step of the way. I am only going to point out to parts of the verse and let you discover what this verse is saying to you. Another point was "He will take great delight in you" just reading this verse I get goosebumps of excitement and joy. After I read this I thought about the things I take delight in and the things that I love. I love my mother more than anyone on the earth, I would do anything for her (Yes mama this is true) she is the most courageous person I know and the Lords strength shines through her. I think about how much I love her and I feel like there cant be a way that someone could love more than this bond but there is. It is comforts me to know that God delights in ME simple ME. I mean I am at loss for words (which never happens). I have decided to keep this verse with me through out the day and sit in silence over it and listen to what the Lord wants me to hear about myself. I mean Gods love is so stinking awesome, and to think the Maker of the universe the almighty God loves me even when I screw up, He loves me when I feel like no one does. I want to encourage you that today sit in silence before the Lord and see what He says. Stop everthing you are doing and let yourself feel the presence of Gods love and let Him hold you and hug you.

Fire Fall Down

Fire Fall Down
This past week I have been struggling with what the Lord is trying to say to me about certain situations. I went to a Bible Study called engage last night and let me tell you how awesome it was. I sing in the worship band at my church for various student groups, and it has been a while since I have been able to be off stage and just worship the Lord. Now don't get me wrong I don't stop myself from worship when I stage but it is a different presence for me and I am still learning to let go of my fears and give it all to God. But last night standing there in the presence of God was so convicting. I feel closest with the Lord when worshiping through song, I love nothing more than to dig deep into His word but I feel like I am in the arms of my maker when in worship with His name. They talked about decision making in our lives and how being an indecision maker is where we find ourselves a lot. The bold statement that was made was "almost is not alright" what he meant was what struggles and fears and situations are you going through that you get to the starting line but then you back away slowly and never start the race. That honestly had me thinking hard about the things in my life that I make my way to the starting line and almost start and then I walk away. What Lord showed me last night hurt a lot but the fact that I have a God that gives mercy and wants nothing more than praise gives me reassurance that because He is in control I will get through these lies that are told to me. I am going strong and telling you my decision was to learn to love myself and see myself the way He does, and when I look in the mirror I see Amy Richardson a woman made from the perfect image of God. These insecurities and anxieties that are told to me by the one who wants nothing more than to steal kill and destroy and he will not take control of me. I have forgotten way to often how much I forget of the Lords grace and love. I do not feel worthy to praise such an indescribable and majestic God. He loves me anyways and with these struggles I will grow stronger with Him. My intimate relationship with the Lord is my most important relationship and always will be. I read last night in my quiet time 1 Peter 5:6-11:"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that He may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on Him because He care for you. Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy, the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will Himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast . . ." From the verse I learned how I had taken control of my life and had forgotten it is not mine to control and I need to Trust Him because He has everthing under control. I am through with satan finding his way into and chipping away at me bit by bit. My decision that I make today is that Satan is through messing with my decisions with the Lord and thus causing me to fall from His kingdom. I will put myself back under the hand of my mighty God. Oh thank you Lord for your Grace. Your fire will burn through my soul and I will be your daughter. Lord Show me your ways, show me your heart and your glory. The song that they ended with last night was Fire Fall Down such powerful words of truth.

This is my prayer...

"Cause I know that you're alive
You came to fix my broken life
And I'll sing to glorify
Your Holy name, Jesus Christ
You bought my life with the blood
That you shed on the cross
When you died for the sins of men
And you let out a cry, crucified
Now alive in me
These hands are yours
Teach them to serve As you please and I'll reach out
Desperate to see all the greatness of God
May my soul rest assured in youI'll never be the same
No I'll never be the same
Cause I know that you're alive
You came to fix my broken life
And I'll sing to glorifyYour Holy name, Jesus Christ
You've changed it all
You broke down the wall
When I spoke and confessed
In you I am blessed
Now I walk in the light
In victorious sight of youFire fall down
Fire fall down
On us we pray
As we seek
Fire fall down
Your fire fall down
On us we pray"

I thought I would share a song that has given me comfort for my day. I hope that it might do the same for you.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J95rAr0gOFU

A synonym for angry?

John F. Kennedy once said “I look forward to a future in which our country will match its military strength with our moral restraint, its wealth with our wisdom, its power with our purpose.” A clever man he was, JFK was one of my favorite presidents he is second to of course Abraham Lincoln (but that is saved for another time). I will say that I did not completely agree with all that he and his campaign stood for, but I did admire his love and passion for his country. The man could give a speech with such generosity and nobleness and intelligence. With those qualities I find myself so intrigued with this family and their crazy background, but anyways now explaining the reason for my quote. I hate that this is my first election that I get part in, I mean McCain and Obama they are both ridiculous but I find myself having some pretty livid feelings towards a certain candidate running for “Commander and Chief of the armed forces” (I apologize in all ways if this is offensive but I am a blunt person) and his name is Obama. First off are we seriously going to put a man in office that is going to control our armed forces and he has never had any experience in the military? What Yes America is so intelligent my word, I mean really? How in the world is he going to tell us how to fight and what procedures should he call on if he has never experienced it. This frustrates me so much. Anyways I was watching a court case held against abortion and Obama. Obama voted yes towards abortion in the state of Illinois. When a woman put on the stand shared a story about when she was forced with her job to hold a new born baby who was aborted through the umbilical cord. The baby was born with Down syndrome, and she could not bear to live it alone that she held it for 45 min and watch the heart beat go slowly down until it stopped. (I am crying typing this). When this type of abortion happens they take the living child that has a birth certificate to a room and wait until it takes its last breathe then given a death certificate, when the women shared this testimony Obama did not shed one tear. Is he human? This is cruel, it’s almost like in the Old Testament when people would sacrifice their children to the pagan gods the Lord did not intend for this. Abortion is MURDER flat out no other word is used for it. How can we allow a man who would watch something and agree with something so inhumane? My last thing that makes the cherry on top is when he was asked about his own daughters he said I believe that nothing my children do deserve to suffer with a child and when they asked him why for that comment he said that is above my payroll WHAT does that mean. He infuriates me so much. To think that a man with morals such as these could be running my country scares me but trusting in my Lord Jesus Christ I know a “David” will soon reign again. This country has lost its passion for what our freedom is really about. We have lost men who have a living fire inside of them to serve our country.

Rise and Shine

I am very excited about this blog!! I don't know how consistent I will be with my posts. I am hoping with this blog I will grow stronger in my relationship with the Lord. This blog will be my thoughts and discomforts and insecurities and my believes. As well as a little bit of randomness. My life is just beginning and I hope that with this blog others will be up lifted and they will find something through this. I find myself getting caught up with the ways of the world that I forget my TRUE purpose on this earth, which is to serve the Lord. When people look at me I want them to see the light of Jesus shine through me. With this blog I will be sharing my attempts of living a life glorifying to Him. It will have my ramblings and struggles and passions and beliefs. It will be disturbing at times because nothing in life is ever going to be perfect and God shows himself in ways that people cant even imagine. I am a disciple of Christ and just a women who is still discovering the majestic mysteries of the world. All I want is to hear the words "well done my good and faithful servant." said to me as I enter the Kingdom of God.