Fire Fall Down

Fire Fall Down
This past week I have been struggling with what the Lord is trying to say to me about certain situations. I went to a Bible Study called engage last night and let me tell you how awesome it was. I sing in the worship band at my church for various student groups, and it has been a while since I have been able to be off stage and just worship the Lord. Now don't get me wrong I don't stop myself from worship when I stage but it is a different presence for me and I am still learning to let go of my fears and give it all to God. But last night standing there in the presence of God was so convicting. I feel closest with the Lord when worshiping through song, I love nothing more than to dig deep into His word but I feel like I am in the arms of my maker when in worship with His name. They talked about decision making in our lives and how being an indecision maker is where we find ourselves a lot. The bold statement that was made was "almost is not alright" what he meant was what struggles and fears and situations are you going through that you get to the starting line but then you back away slowly and never start the race. That honestly had me thinking hard about the things in my life that I make my way to the starting line and almost start and then I walk away. What Lord showed me last night hurt a lot but the fact that I have a God that gives mercy and wants nothing more than praise gives me reassurance that because He is in control I will get through these lies that are told to me. I am going strong and telling you my decision was to learn to love myself and see myself the way He does, and when I look in the mirror I see Amy Richardson a woman made from the perfect image of God. These insecurities and anxieties that are told to me by the one who wants nothing more than to steal kill and destroy and he will not take control of me. I have forgotten way to often how much I forget of the Lords grace and love. I do not feel worthy to praise such an indescribable and majestic God. He loves me anyways and with these struggles I will grow stronger with Him. My intimate relationship with the Lord is my most important relationship and always will be. I read last night in my quiet time 1 Peter 5:6-11:"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that He may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on Him because He care for you. Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy, the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will Himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast . . ." From the verse I learned how I had taken control of my life and had forgotten it is not mine to control and I need to Trust Him because He has everthing under control. I am through with satan finding his way into and chipping away at me bit by bit. My decision that I make today is that Satan is through messing with my decisions with the Lord and thus causing me to fall from His kingdom. I will put myself back under the hand of my mighty God. Oh thank you Lord for your Grace. Your fire will burn through my soul and I will be your daughter. Lord Show me your ways, show me your heart and your glory. The song that they ended with last night was Fire Fall Down such powerful words of truth.

This is my prayer...

"Cause I know that you're alive
You came to fix my broken life
And I'll sing to glorify
Your Holy name, Jesus Christ
You bought my life with the blood
That you shed on the cross
When you died for the sins of men
And you let out a cry, crucified
Now alive in me
These hands are yours
Teach them to serve As you please and I'll reach out
Desperate to see all the greatness of God
May my soul rest assured in youI'll never be the same
No I'll never be the same
Cause I know that you're alive
You came to fix my broken life
And I'll sing to glorifyYour Holy name, Jesus Christ
You've changed it all
You broke down the wall
When I spoke and confessed
In you I am blessed
Now I walk in the light
In victorious sight of youFire fall down
Fire fall down
On us we pray
As we seek
Fire fall down
Your fire fall down
On us we pray"