Thursday, February 4, 2010


I have been thinking...maybe I should blog more??? what do you think? hmm

Friday, May 29, 2009

It's off to CAMP I go....

This Monday I will be leaving for the summer for camp. I AM SO EXCITED!!! I will be working at Camp La Vida as a Cabin Leader/Worship Leader! I am so excited to be able to spend my summer with young girls 24/7 and getting to experience and know their hearts. I have a huge passion for the hearts of young teenage girls and I know that this is going to be a wonderful summer. I can't wait to use my creativity and excitement with my girls this summer. I can't wait to have fun and laugh and just love and teach Jesus everyday. I can't wait to make relationships with these girls and not only have them share their hearts but get to share my story with them!!!!

I do ask that you might take the time and pray for this Camp and all that is about. It is a missions based camp and just pray for the hearts of the girls that will be coming into my cabin and the ones in others. Pray that their hearts are opened to what the Lord has to say to them and that He will show up so vividly that they fall to their knees. Also that the staff will just have a good attitude at all times even in the heat and when we are tired and pray that they continue at all times to shine Jesus EVER so brightly. Also that everyone that comes into this camp will have their worlds rocked my Jesus Christ and leave being excited for Him and continue to always live their lives on FIRE for Him. That He will be glorified in every message this summer and in every worship service... every activity...every conversation...every laugh...every cry...every meal ... basically that the Lord will be glorified by this Camp and that He will be praised and smile down.

I am so excited about what the Lord as in store for me and for others this summer and it makes me jump out of my skin with excitement. I CAN'T WAIT TO RETURN AND SHARE ALL OF MINE AND THEIR STORIES!!



Sunday, May 10, 2009

My Mother

I would like to take sometime and share a few things that I love and admire about my mom! My mom has been a single mom since I was 5 years old! My mom is the most determined and independant woman i know. She has spent her life raising and loving me and my sister. She has filled our home with love and encouragement and fun and laughter. She has been the admiring example of a godly woman. My mom has been through a lot in her life but she is the best thing the Lord has ever given me in this lifetime. My mom brought music in my life. My mom is my biggest fan! She is fun and exciting she is loving and caring and compassionate and passionate and genuine and real. She lives life to her fullest and she is my favorite. my mom works multiple jobs to take care of her family and she is my biggest encourager. she is someone i admire and love and want to be like. She never meets a stranger. She is a WONDERFUL MOTHER, SISTER, DAUGHTER, NANA AND PERSON! I thank Jesus for my mother everyday because without her my life would not be the same. my mother raised me and my sister to be the best and no other mom could warm my heart and bless it as much as mine! I love my mommmy!`



Thursday, March 26, 2009

His Children

I Just wanted to share some pictures that I am able to get on to my computer of the children who have I have not only gotten to know but who have touched and blessed my life as well.

We Are His Hands & His Feet

"If You say go
We will go
If you say wait
We will wait
If You say step out on the water
And they say it can't be done
We'll will fix my eyes on You
And we will come
Your way are higher than our ways
And the plans that You have made are good and true
If you call us to the fire
You alone withdraw Your hand
We'll gaze into the flames
And look for You" -Rita Springer-

The words above are what my heart cries out everyday and is completely what the Lord is doing with and in my life. I have never been this at peace with my life and with what the Lord has in store for it. You have heard or read actually that I have wanted to be a teacher since I was in the 1st grade. It has all I have ever wanted to be. I started my first year of college this past fall and majoring in early childhood education. But for the past 4 months I have had the most insetting feeling in the pit of my stomach about my major. I have gone from wanting to go to elementary education to music education and have never gotten rid of the uncertainty. I have traveled to many different places all over the world where I have been blessed to come face to face with some of the Lord's beautiful children. Every child that I have met or have watched or seen stay in my heart forever. I forget a lot of things ( ask my mother lol ) but I have never forgotten a smile from one of His little ones. The Lord has made me different than most people. I honesty believe that Lord equipped me with the ability to understand and love unconditionally every child in this world. When I hear a child laugh my ears are filled with Joy. All I want to do in my life is make a difference for my Savior who made a difference for me on the Cross. I have always known that I have wanted to work with children. I went to Venezuela on a Mission trip in 2005 and I still today have the bracelet and letter that a little girl named Graciela she was the youngest of 7 children and her mother did not work and her father was a factory worker. They lived in a house that was the size of my closet and bathroom combined. The last day that I left she took off her bracelet and said "Ami this is for you to remember me until we meet again with Jesus" my heart melted and I just fell on my face at the moment for the Lord. She also wrote me a letter that from memory I remember it saying "you are now my sister Ami and you will always have a home here in my heart" I have countless stories that I can sit here today and type out for you. But to get to the point of my blog today I went on a Mission Trip over Spring Break to Delaware. It was not the normal kind of work that I normally do because we did mostly labor work in a homeless shelter and worked with the BSM from the University of Delaware. But on the Sunday we were there Stan (who is the pastor we helped) took us to a park inside of the city of Wilmington which is one of the biggest in Delaware. He sat us down at a table and just had us look out on the city and he wanted us to express some ideas that we had that his church and ministry could do for this city and this park. While he was talking and everyone else was expressing their ideas I could not help but not pay attention to what they were saying because all I could do was lookout on the playground on every child's face and just wonder what their story is and what the Lord has in store and planned for them. He came to me and asked me what I thought and all I could say was "all i have been thinking about is that little boy who shoes are untied and how I have wanted to get up the past 20 minutes to tie them. And how there is a little girl in the sandbox who keeps trying to make a castle but she is just not strong enough to lift up the bucket full of sand and I just want to go over there and tip for her and just give her a smile. I wanted to help a little girl who had skates on that her mom put on her and her mom then ignored her while her daughter was falling. I wanted to help her and show her how to skate." It was at that moment that I knew that the Lord has not had my life planned out to be a normal life. And I don't want a normal life for the Lord. I don't want to live my life day to day from 8-3 inside of a classroom and be a puppet doll being pulled by strings on what I can and cannot say about my Savior. I don't want to spend my life grading papers and giving out tests. I am called to be a teacher but Jesus has now told my heart that I am called to be one of His teachers. I want to glove every cold handed child. I wanted to hug the hug less and I want to tickle the sad. I want to rock the sleepless. I want to be the Jesus light to the children of the world that have been forgotten about and show them that their Father is still with them and share and show His love for them. I teach them how to use their gifts and talents that are ignored my the world but that were given to them by the Lord. I want to play games with them I want to hug and kiss them. I want to make the smile and laugh all day long. I want to be encourager. I want to share Jesus with them and I want to read them stories of Jesus and I want them to discover His love and His meaning. I want to spend my life doing the Lords work and the Lord's teachings. I want to be His teacher and I want to spread His name all over the world to every child. I want to meet my little brothers and sisters and tell them that I love them because He first loved me. I could go on and on for days and months on the passion the Lord has placed in my heart for His children. I love my Jesus more passionately that ever before and the past 6 months have been the best 6months of my life with the Lord. I have come to know the Lord intimately and He is my daddy. He is who I want to work for. He has showed me so much of who I really am and some parts have been hard to listen to and to come to realize but He has broken me of my past and He has brought me back up new and fresh and covered in the love and the sea of His all loving and covering Grace. He has ransomed me from my sins. He Heals all of my sinful ways and with that He blesses me with His presence. So to get to the point I have changed my major to intercultural studies...and i have never been more at peace with it. If you are drawing a ? at what my major now is all about Missions. I have been called to be a missionary for the Lord. I have to come to an understanding of the challenges I am going to face academically with this major and the struggles with His word and the curiosity and how He is going to consume my whole heart and I am PERFECTLY alright with that. I have more to share on this story but I am going to with frame assuming that you have read this whole thing and give your eyes a break from the computer screen :). And I am always willing to wholeheartedly open up my heart with you if you ever ask. I want to leave you today though with song that is like the one above that is my heart but this song is exactly what the Lord is doing with me starting today. I want to be His hands and His feet. I want to travel to orphanages and love I want to start orphanages if I could I would adopt every child. As well as the song that will be posted below I do want to say this to my mother. She has been my backhand my whole life and she has been and is my inspiration. She is the strongest woman that I know. She is a beautiful example and showing of a woman and a mother of God. She has played multiple rolls in my house growing up. She doesn't just love her children but she loves me and my sister with her whole heart unconditionally. She would give her life for her daughters and she would do it unashamedly and without second thought. She has taught me how to love and she is a big reason why I want to be a mom to so many children. My mom always hugged always kissed. She always said I love you even in the middle of a fight. My mom is beautiful from the inside out and it is because of my mama that i was shown my talents and my passions. She has never told me that I can not achieve anything and she is my biggest fan. I love my mother :)

Free To Change The World
-Casey Darnell-
A million cries are never heard
A million voices calling out to life and love
And if I belong to You
What will I choose
We are Your hands and feet
We are free to change the world
Reaching out to the unseen
To those who haven't heard
We are free to change the world
For ever heart who longs to know
For every hand that's reaching out for someone to hold
for every step they take alone
let justice be much more than a song
We are Your hands and feet
We are free change the world
Reaching out to the unseen
To those who haven't heard
We are free to change the world
Chosen by Your word
To bring hope to the unknown
So that they all will know
They are not alone
Orphan ones will have a home
If we will go
We are Your hands and feet
We are free to change the world
Reaching out to unseen
Your hands and feet
We are free to change the world
Reaching out to the unseen
We are free to change the world
To change the world
So that they ALL will know they are not alone
We are free to change the world