We Are His Hands & His Feet

"If You say go

We will go

If you say wait

We will wait

If You say step out on the water

And they say it can't be done

We'll will fix my eyes on You

And we will come

Your way are higher than our ways

And the plans that You have made are good and true

If you call us to the fire

You alone withdraw Your hand

We'll gaze into the flames

And look for You" -Rita Springer-

The words above are what my heart cries out everyday and is completely what the Lord is doing with and in my life. I have never been this at peace with my life and with what the Lord has in store for it. You have heard or read actually that I have wanted to be a teacher since I was in the 1st grade. It has all I have ever wanted to be. I started my first year of college this past fall and majoring in early childhood education. But for the past 4 months I have had the most insetting feeling in the pit of my stomach about my major. I have gone from wanting to go to elementary education to music education and have never gotten rid of the uncertainty. I have traveled to many different places all over the world where I have been blessed to come face to face with some of the Lord's beautiful children. Every child that I have met or have watched or seen stay in my heart forever. I forget a lot of things ( ask my mother lol ) but I have never forgotten a smile from one of His little ones. The Lord has made me different than most people. I honesty believe that Lord equipped me with the ability to understand and love unconditionally every child in this world. When I hear a child laugh my ears are filled with Joy. All I want to do in my life is make a difference for my Savior who made a difference for me on the Cross. I have always known that I have wanted to work with children. I went to Venezuela on a Mission trip in 2005 and I still today have the bracelet and letter that a little girl named Graciela she was the youngest of 7 children and her mother did not work and her father was a factory worker. They lived in a house that was the size of my closet and bathroom combined. The last day that I left she took off her bracelet and said "Ami this is for you to remember me until we meet again with Jesus" my heart melted and I just fell on my face at the moment for the Lord. She also wrote me a letter that from memory I remember it saying "you are now my sister Ami and you will always have a home here in my heart" I have countless stories that I can sit here today and type out for you. But to get to the point of my blog today I went on a Mission Trip over Spring Break to Delaware. It was not the normal kind of work that I normally do because we did mostly labor work in a homeless shelter and worked with the BSM from the University of Delaware. But on the Sunday we were there Stan (who is the pastor we helped) took us to a park inside of the city of Wilmington which is one of the biggest in Delaware. He sat us down at a table and just had us look out on the city and he wanted us to express some ideas that we had that his church and ministry could do for this city and this park. While he was talking and everyone else was expressing their ideas I could not help but not pay attention to what they were saying because all I could do was lookout on the playground on every child's face and just wonder what their story is and what the Lord has in store and planned for them. He came to me and asked me what I thought and all I could say was "all i have been thinking about is that little boy who shoes are untied and how I have wanted to get up the past 20 minutes to tie them. And how there is a little girl in the sandbox who keeps trying to make a castle but she is just not strong enough to lift up the bucket full of sand and I just want to go over there and tip for her and just give her a smile. I wanted to help a little girl who had skates on that her mom put on her and her mom then ignored her while her daughter was falling. I wanted to help her and show her how to skate." It was at that moment that I knew that the Lord has not had my life planned out to be a normal life. And I don't want a normal life for the Lord. I don't want to live my life day to day from 8-3 inside of a classroom and be a puppet doll being pulled by strings on what I can and cannot say about my Savior. I don't want to spend my life grading papers and giving out tests. I am called to be a teacher but Jesus has now told my heart that I am called to be one of His teachers. I want to glove every cold handed child. I wanted to hug the hug less and I want to tickle the sad. I want to rock the sleepless. I want to be the Jesus light to the children of the world that have been forgotten about and show them that their Father is still with them and share and show His love for them. I teach them how to use their gifts and talents that are ignored my the world but that were given to them by the Lord. I want to play games with them I want to hug and kiss them. I want to make the smile and laugh all day long. I want to be encourager. I want to share Jesus with them and I want to read them stories of Jesus and I want them to discover His love and His meaning. I want to spend my life doing the Lords work and the Lord's teachings. I want to be His teacher and I want to spread His name all over the world to every child. I want to meet my little brothers and sisters and tell them that I love them because He first loved me. I could go on and on for days and months on the passion the Lord has placed in my heart for His children. I love my Jesus more passionately that ever before and the past 6 months have been the best 6months of my life with the Lord. I have come to know the Lord intimately and He is my daddy. He is who I want to work for. He has showed me so much of who I really am and some parts have been hard to listen to and to come to realize but He has broken me of my past and He has brought me back up new and fresh and covered in the love and the sea of His all loving and covering Grace. He has ransomed me from my sins. He Heals all of my sinful ways and with that He blesses me with His presence. So to get to the point I have changed my major to intercultural studies...and i have never been more at peace with it. If you are drawing a ? at what my major now is all about Missions. I have been called to be a missionary for the Lord. I have to come to an understanding of the challenges I am going to face academically with this major and the struggles with His word and the curiosity and how He is going to consume my whole heart and I am PERFECTLY alright with that. I have more to share on this story but I am going to with frame assuming that you have read this whole thing and give your eyes a break from the computer screen :). And I am always willing to wholeheartedly open up my heart with you if you ever ask. I want to leave you today though with song that is like the one above that is my heart but this song is exactly what the Lord is doing with me starting today. I want to be His hands and His feet. I want to travel to orphanages and love I want to start orphanages if I could I would adopt every child. As well as the song that will be posted below I do want to say this to my mother. She has been my backhand my whole life and she has been and is my inspiration. She is the strongest woman that I know. She is a beautiful example and showing of a woman and a mother of God. She has played multiple rolls in my house growing up. She doesn't just love her children but she loves me and my sister with her whole heart unconditionally. She would give her life for her daughters and she would do it unashamedly and without second thought. She has taught me how to love and she is a big reason why I want to be a mom to so many children. My mom always hugged always kissed. She always said I love you even in the middle of a fight. My mom is beautiful from the inside out and it is because of my mama that i was shown my talents and my passions. She has never told me that I can not achieve anything and she is my biggest fan. I love my mother :)

Free To Change The World

-Casey Darnell-

A million cries are never heard

A million voices calling out to life and love

And if I belong to You

What will I choose

We are Your hands and feet

We are free to change the world

Reaching out to the unseen

To those who haven't heard

We are free to change the world

For ever heart who longs to know

For every hand that's reaching out for someone to hold

for every step they take alone

let justice be much more than a song

We are Your hands and feet

We are free change the world

Reaching out to the unseen

To those who haven't heard

We are free to change the world

Chosen by Your word

To bring hope to the unknown

So that they all will know

They are not alone

Orphan ones will have a home

If we will go

We are Your hands and feet

We are free to change the world

Reaching out to unseen

Your hands and feet

We are free to change the world

Reaching out to the unseen

We are free to change the world

We ARE FREE, WE ARE FREE, WE ARE FREE

To change the world

So that they ALL will know they are not alone

We are free to change the world

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