Let my heart break for what breaks His...

So I know that I have not blogged in a while and I have been boycotting my blog for a while for certain reasons. But I am back!! I know I know you are all excited. I can totally tell that I have been missed by my loyal readers out there. HA! Anyways...




The meaning for this blog today is to show that everyone has secrets and there is no one in this world that is perfect. The only perfect one who has walked on the this sinful ground called earth is the Lord Jesus Christ. He has this Love for us that is rare and so deep and so basically the the only true love. He longs to have us in His arms. You see He never takes His arms off of you but when you are alone you don't feel Him the thing is He is still there you are just choosing to not feel Him. When you are lonely and scared and you just wonder what your purpose is in the world and what He planned for you and you can't seem to figure it out because all you can hear are the lies of Satan remember that truth lies in the same room as you are. He is always and will always be there. He doesn't live us, we leave Him and that is what we forget constantly. He is jealous and He deserves ALL of our praise and our worship and service and our Love and ALL of our hearts. We doesn't deserve for us to hold anything back from Him. He doesn't keep things from us we just choose not to hear Him. There is something in all of our lives that we hold on to and that we find satisfaction in that is not glorifying to the Lord. Some of ours are big and some are small things but that is in our minds but in His all of those things are the same. His arms are always stretched out wide open and He will always welcome you into His arms. Just let yourself go and feel Him and go inside. You can hide from other people and you can lie to yourself and you can pretend like nothing is wrong but you can't do those things with Him. Let Him be your hiding place because it is the safest and most peaceful place you can go. There are so many times that I hold things back from the Lord. Ask Him to open up your eyes so you can see, to open up your ears so you can hear Him and open up your mind so you can know and most importantly open up your hear so you can love Him more. Cause if you want to serve Him and give Him everything you can't do that when you have baggage that you are not fully giving to Him. Because I know I want to serve my God and my King with all that is within me. Let Him make you new and make you true so that you can be more like Him. Let Him love you because no matter what you say He does always love you. To grow and to know Him you have to be broken. You have to see what is wrong and what is right. You have to not allow Satan to win the battles of your mind and of your soul. Ask yourself that question. Who controls your mind? And if the answer is the wrong one then only you know what you need to do. I ask myself that question daily. I struggle with allowing Satan to control my mind. I allow Him to get to me when I look in the mirror and I forget that what is true is my beauty that the Lord finds beautiful. I allow Him to get to me when I worry about things in life and others. I am huge worrier. I am a control freak I like things done my way and that is a struggle with me because that means I don't always give my all to the Lord because I want to handle the situation. And I come to realize that I do that. The point to blog today is that we all have pain in life and we struggle with many different things. We handle them in all different kinds of ways. We judge others. We get mad at friends who are just doing what they feel is right in their hearts. We walk around and pretend like things are okay when they are not. We please others when what we are pleasing them with is wrong. We love conditionallly. We are selfish. We live by our will not His. We do things that the Lord despises and what I am trying to say is that when you are hurt imagine how your God feels. He created you and He feels your pain because every sin is another nail in His hand. We cause Him the greatest pain and suffering and that is shows me that my God loves me Amy Richardson because I am His daughter just striving to be better and to grow stronger and deeper and fuller in Him and His heart. When I feel Him I feel my heart beat faster.





Listen to this song and truly listen to the words because they are true among us all. Because think about it. If what breaks His heart doesn't break yours then I ask you to go to Him and fix that...





the song that i am posting the lyrics for is the song that made me think of the words to my blog today but the second song just listen it because it says more than words to my heart and i pray if does and speaks to you as well...





So hard to fathom the pain in your eyes


as you walked in your children doing what you despise


In pursuit of our own


we just go round and round


another nail to our cause


we continue to pound


what are you, man, if you do not learn love


what are you, man if you do not learn love


It's so hard to fatham,oh, the feeling inside


As you're watching your people choosing to die


You called out a warning


To all that would hear


Saying come to me, come to me


I must learn love


learn love


learn love


learn love





http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=irDoNv5oEKY





http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a3CZIoJZ56Y

Oh How He Loves

Have you ever stopped and thought about what life would be like if God were not who He is? What if God's love was not unconditional? What if God only loved the clever, the beautiful, the rich and the famous? What if God was completely indifferent to us and didn't care if we lived or died? What if He didn't care whether we laughed or cried? What if God loved to lie to His people and was ready to pounce on us for all of our wrongs? What if He didn't give second, third, fourth...so on chances? What if He ignored us? What if He mocked us? What if He didn't send His one and only son to this earth to die so that we might live for eternity with Him?

Think about these questions...add some if you would like. I got an e-mail from a friend who is serving in South Asia and she was telling me about how when she went to visit the temples she talked to a woman. She was telling her about how she gives the gods sweets because she wants kindness from them and she gives them money when she has financial problems. When I read that all I could think was WOW. My Jesus sure is a gracious and unconditional God. How lucky I am to serve Him and to be His daughter. I take advantage of His love everyday and every second. He welcomes me into His arms and His church without anything. All He asks is that we worship and praise Him. Love Him and honor Him. I don't have to bake Him cookies for His kindness. I can turn away and He would and will still love me. He is my savior and my Lord. He created us all different and He loves the difference in us all. I could talk on this subject for hours and days but I just wanted to leave you with this to think about. And realize how lucky we truly are to know THE God that loves His children ALWAYS and FOREVER.

Reign In Me

This past Friday I went to a service at New Spring Church that was 2 hours of just worship and reading of His word. All I have to say is that Jesus is the only one that can truly silence me. Worship to me is my life cup. The past couple of months my cup has been almost empty to about dried out. I have needed to be refreshed with His mercy and His grace. I love to worship with the people that I love and I love to watch them sing and give praises to the mighty one and it was awesome to get to experience and be next to a friend that the Lord has blessed me with. For the first time in I don't even know how long I become completely vulnerable with Him and let Him take control of my body and my soul. He blessed me while I was praising Him. I was at lost for words. The Lord knows the ways of my heart more and deeper than anyone or anything. He is my purpose and my desire. I have been desperate for His touch. I have wanted nothing more than to feel His love and glory around all of me. Jesus rocks my world. He shakes everything inside of me and He fulfills the desires and the wants and needs of my heart. Through out the time of worship there were times of reading in the word and prayer. The Lord brought me to tears and on my knees for the ones in my life that I love and the ones that I want to be next to me in Heaven. He humbled me with His grace. He poured out over me and He showed me His face. I am just in the mood to have an outburst and say that I JUST LOVE JESUS WITH ALL THAT IS IN ME!!! I want nothing but serve His heart and that salvation will flow as His people pray and sing praises to Him. He completely to hold of my whole heart and He covered it with his bandages of grace and then He sealed it back with His love and mercy. I don't even know how to explain how freaking AWESOME that is to me. He is a God who saves and He reigns now and forever. I have been battling with the Lord in ways of just wanting to be in His presence in song again. My soul cries out for and longs for His praises. I have been starving myself for true worship and He fed me. Man did He feed me. I can't even explain the feeling that I had and that I have. He gave me chills, His beauty led me to weep, His glory made me lose control of my body and I jumped for my God. He is the rhythm of my beating heart. My heart beats to the rhythm of His will. I honestly can't remember anything that was going on around me and that is the best thing because I was completely focused on Him. He had my attention. He cleansed my broken heart and He gave me clean and pure hands and washed away all my sins. He renewed my hope. He put His image in my heart. He showed me that I am beautiful because I am made in Him. The lies that I have been wrapping myself with are gone and i am set free. So many times I forget what He did for me. I complain about the problems in my life but I really? I complain when my Savior carried a cross that was so heavy and had all of its weight in our sins and He died so that i could be set free in Him. There is no greater love than in my father. He showed me that no one else has the power in this world to speak louder than Him. And I choose Him and only Him. My desire is to be in love with what He loves and become more than satisfied in Him. Because I want it to be made known right here for everyone to see and read and for anyone who doesn't know Him that He is something greater than what the mind can fathom. He is the ultimate healer and He is the only one who can bring you true loving peace. He died so that you may live. So today I am going to scream out say that that I AM MADLY AND DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH MY LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST. He showed me so much within those two hours. When it was over all I could do was sit down in my seat in silence and think its not over because worship with my God will never be over. I will be worshiping Him now and for eternity. That makes my heart jump with so much joy. I get to sing praises to my Lord for the rest of my life and for all eternity with Him.



I want to leave you today with two songs that really just...I can't even explain the greatness that they do to my heart but just remember if you love Him you should sing praises to Him because it says in His words in Zephaniah 3:17 that "He takes great delight in you and He will quiet you with His love, and He will rejoice over you with singing." so bow before His presence and sing to Him. He is high and lifted up. And let your soul sing hallelujah to the lamb of God. Worship Him and adore Him. If you truly desire to know His heart don't let any moment pass you by and just praise Him with song, praise Him with your actions, Praise Him with your words, Praise Him with your prayers, Praise Him through admiring His paintings and creations, Praise Him with your body. JUST PRAISE HIM.



Came to my Rescue: Hillsong United

Falling on my knees in worship

Giving all that I am to seek your face

Lord all I am is yours

My whole life I have placed in your hands

God of mercy humbled I bow down

In your presence at your throne

I call you answered

And you came to RESCUE and i

I want to be where you are

My whole life Ive placed in your hands

God of mercy humbled i bow down

In your presence at your throne

I call you answered

And you came to rescue and I

I want to be where you are

In my life be lifted High

In our world be lifted high

In our love be lifted high

In my life be lifted high

In our world be lifted high

IN MY LOVE BE LIFTED HIGH

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yAMbEPZfWCY



Reign in us: Starfield

You thought of us before the world began to breathe

You knew our names before we came to be

You saw the very day we fall away from you

And how desperately we need to be redeemed

Lord Jesus come lead us, we're desperate for your touch

Oh great and mighty one

With one desire we come

That you would reign, that you would reign in us

We're offering up our lives

A living sacrifice

That you would reign in us

Spirit of the living God fall fresh again

Come search our hearts and purify our lives

We need your perfect love we need your discipline

We're lost unless you guide us with your light Lord Jesus come lead us

We're desperate for your touch

Oh great and mighty one with one desire we come

That you would reign that you would reign in us

We're offering up our lives a living sacrifice

That you would reign that you would reign in us

We're offering up our lives a living sacrifice

That you would reign that you would reign in us

We cry out for your life to revive us cry out

For your love defines us

For your mercy to keep us Blameless until you return

Oh great and mighty one with one desire we come

That you would reign in us

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_dohj2QAdzs

Give It All To Him

The Lord has really been messing with me lately. I am in a weird part of my life right now and sometimes it hard to really know what the Lord wants me to do. I struggle daily with being the woman that He created me to be. I went to the Clemson vs. Carolina football game yesterday. If you know me you know that I LOVE FOOTBALL and that the Lord will bless me with a husband who loves it just as much as I do. I love the excitement and the thrill of the game and the suspense of every play once the ball it hiked. It was also cold and rainy and I have lost a good bit of my voice. Anyways after the game we were walking back to our tailgate and I just heard Clemson fans screaming in unison the classic cheer of "C-L-E-M-S-O-N T-I-G-E-R-S FIGHT TIGERS FIGHT TIGERS FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT" They were all coming together to celebrate a victory over their biggest rival. Now here is where the weird part of me kicks in. As I listened I started to think about how excited these people including me were excited to watch the team they cheer for a dedicate a lot of their time to have a great win. Then I started to think about christians and the Victory that Christ will always have over Satan. I then started to realize how much we have lost excitement for the strength and the power of the God that we serve. I just started really pondering how we scream and yell out our lungs for the team but how we don't do it for Him. Why is this? It's screwed up if you ask me. He deserves the best and ultimate praise from His people. I have more thoughts on this subject but I am going to leave you with this to think about. what are you giving your true worship and praide to instead of to the God you claim to Love and serve. And I am not saying that you should not go to these games and enjoy yourself but just don't praise them more than you praise Him.

I mean our God is Victorious and there will NEVER be a battle or a game that He cannot conquer. He is most high and He the blessed Savior. I also really just love time with football because people are just so friendly with one another. You know to an extent there are times of fighting and anger but really when your team scores a touch down and have excitement even if you don't know the person beside you, you still turn to them and smile and highfive and sometime hug. Just think how awesome it would be if His people would come together and just love every person that they saw and just together as one body of believers and worshiped Him and praised Him with all that they have. So that they will lose their voices in the presence of their Lord. I just love the picture above because it shows unity and it is what I pray that the church and the body of believers one day might have.

(this blog is a little confusing I am sorry)

Draw Me Closer

These words were given to me and I heard them today...

For your nearness Lord I hunger
For your nearness Lord I will
hold me ever closer father
Such a love I cant escape
For your nearness I am hoping
For your nearness lord I long
I have no need of any other
I have found where i belong
Draw me nearer Lord
Never let me go
Closer to your heart
Draw me nearer Lord
In your nearness there is healing
What was broken now Whole
Restoration in its fullness
Lasting hope to all who come
In your nearness I take shelter
Where you are is where I am home
I have need of only one thing
To be here before your throne
Draw me nearer
Never let go
Closer to your heart
Draw me nearer Lord
And keep me here
Keep me here
There is no where else I would rather be
So keep me here
There is no where else i would rather be
So draw me nearer Lord
Never let me go
Closer to your heart
Draw me nearer Lord
Draw me nearer Lord